If i should stay
I would only be in your way
So i'll go, but i know
I'll think of you every step of the way

And i will always love you
I,will always love you
You, my darling you, you

Bitter sweet memories
That is all i'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know i'm not what you need

I hope life treats you kind
And i hope you have all you dreamed off
And i wish to you joy and happiness
But above all this, i wish to you love

ladies n gentlemen, prepare urself for the reinvention and reincarnation of the bastard and the he-bitch that i once was.. my words will be sharp and blatant and my attitude will be none of ur concern.. and sarcasm will be my speech.. for i have already been numbed.. numbed to the bone.. that i feel no pain.. and the only pain that will be felt is my words, my attitude and my presence, by u..

god bless
ali

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?

Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.

Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.

Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.

Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time

* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!

ali isnt in the best of mood today..

i cut my hair yesterday and finally, i have bangs.. haha.. so today i styled my hair and accidentally used to much loreal's wet look gel.. and now it looked like that it rained on my hair.. but heck la.. anway.. i like thursday.. sch starts at 1.. gone thru consumer behoviour.. veronica wong asked me to do the ushering for the retail seminar.. well, i agreed.. on one condition that someone else join along.. in the end kwang yong agreed with much hesitation.. haha.. k.. so after that saw angela's eye candy.. haha.. i love spotting out ppl's eye candy.. its my current job.. lol.. yet to find mine though.. so had a mini break.. met some of my orientation class ppl.. got to talk to them.. they always so chirpy.. talking to them makes me happy.. haha..

so was at human resource lecture.. was sitting kinda infront cause i was late so no space.. so i hate to pay attention la.. or.. maybe jus pretend to look like i'm paying attention.. haha.. so yeah.. did the same for accts tutorial.. had to pretend i'm listening as well.. anyway, all this isnt so hard, i sucked up to all my teachers before in sec sch.. compared to my sec sch sucking up, the poly sucking up is jus minimal..

let me talk about why ali wasnt happy today.. i've been smsing ms yah yah hippie and she never reply.. i waited for soo long for the reply.. still no reply.. every morning i wake up looking forward for her sms but will jus be dissapointed.. today smsed her oso.. also no reply.. i saw her in the lecture today but she didnt even say hi.. she was sitting like serious near to me.. like maybe a chair away.. but no taps on the shoulder.. or maybe a hi.. or jus a smile.. but no.. its like i'm not even there.. hey.. i m confused k.. ms yah yah hippie.. i noe u read my blog.. well.. i donno whether u do anymore.. but i hope u do.. pls tell me whats happening.. if for some reason u don wan talk to me anymore... tell me.. and if u still want to tok to me.. tell me oso.. i m really confused and really tired of waiting for your reply.. everytime my handphone beeps i hope its u.. pls reply.. pls..

i think dats it.. for this entry.. tmr i need to go update my passport.. next thurs i goin to JB for some mild shopping with jasmine.. anybody wanna join? tell me kk.. holidays are next week.. don realy look forward so much to it..

oh yah.. i read serene's blog.. there's this guy called 'monkey' who kinda said that he liked her.. i think i noe who this guy is.. haha.. don wanna say i told u so.. but my advice is jus follow ur heart.. jus ponder.. how would life be without him.. and how would life be with him.. if u are happier when u're with him, then i think dats ur cue.. yeah.. all the best k..

love is complicating.. sometimes u like someone and that someone doesnt like u in return.. it sad.. and then u see that that someone has found her someone.. u feel sadder.. but hey.. u see how happy they are together.. at least that u feel happy that she is happy being her someone.. knowing that being with you wouldnt bring her ultimate happiness u ju s learn to smile and be happy that she has found her happiness... may her happiness last forever..

love
ali

There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... A cancer that can't be treated. He was18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside buthe was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.So he asked his mother and she gave him permission.

He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as hewalked. He stopped and went back to look intothe store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautifulsmile he has ever seen before and wanted to kissher right there.He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like tobuy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it."Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.He nodded and she went to the back.She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store.

He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it inhis closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back ofthe store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...!!!

RRRRRING!!!The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don'tknow? He passed away yesterday..."

The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper.

The mother picked it up and started to read it. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn The mother opened another CD...Again there was a piece of paper. It said:Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold handsand say, "I Love You"

ps: i wont post yasi's foto.. the one with her in the miniskirt.. so as to avoid embarassment..

love is complicated, why meddle
ali