Thursday, September 30, 2004

dear journal..

today i did hrm project in sch till it was like 7pm.. finally.. things are finished.. and u noe wad.. when sheryl and jiafang went to show christine ying the case study to ask her review bout it, she blatantly rejected saying that she was busy.. and when they asked what if we came to her at ard 5 later.. she said she doesnt wan to see our case study at all.. she said that its too last minute and that at 5, she wanted to go home.. bitch! wad a bitch!

nvm.. so we went computer lab to use the com.. the booking system was suddenly down, so we could jus book into any computer.. cools.. so did project.. joy and angela was in charge of the bad scene case study, sheryl and jiafang were in charge of the good scene case study and i had to come out with a skit for the presentation.. well all i can say for the skit is jus that its very retarded.. cant disclose anymore.. or else no fun liao.. haha.. i tell u more bout it tmr k..

so anyway... i was left finally with sheryl and jiafang.. joy wanted to go home.. so after she did her part she straight away left... angela left shortly after receiving a call from her bf.. so me, sheryl, jiafang and albert(sheryl bf) walked out of school.. do u noe how eerie our sch gets after dark.. OMFG.. its like freaky.. especially with the recenmt death at blk t15.. a gal fell off the 4th storey.. at t15 few yrs back, got oso a leturer got stabbed.. so it was freaky la.. took the train with sheryl and jf later.. destination: sheryl, yio chu kang.. jiafang, yishun..

on the ride home, i was reading my eight days while jf and sheryl was talking some gerls stuff so i didnt quite bother or disturb them.. so anyway i found out in eight days that fann wong is coming to a mall to make an autograph sesion.. whoah!!!! yay.. i wont say which mall.. nor will i say what time.. dont wan so many ppl go.. hahaha.. i wan go there take fotos of her.. haha.. if can get autograph better.. so made plans with sharif to go out this sunday.. yay.. he doesnt like fann wong or stuff.. but he doesnt mind my shopping antics or other stuff.. so cool.. frens 4eva.. haha..

anyway... so jiafang alighted at yishun and now i was left on the train with sheryl.. a gush of noltagia came.. in yr 1, i'd use to go home with sheryl.. she stay at yio chu kang so she could get down at yio chu kang mrt and take bus or drop at ang mo kio mrt and take bus near my house.. and in yr one she'd use to take train to amk with me and take bus at the bus stop next to my house.. i used to really enjoy it.. we used to go mac donalds at amk and sit and chat bout stuff or do homework.. haha.. she'd be reading her eight days there while i'll be eating fries and sheryl gets most of it.. haha.. she'd do this wierd mix of the sauces and it would turn out really nice.. those were the day that i really enjoyed myself.. with cliques like sheryl, jiafang, cecilia and charlene.. but something happen and things change.. and we were not so close anymore.. i missed those days.. i missed those times where i'd enjoy being with my frens and they enjoyed being with me.. now, it lacks that and my frens dont really enjoy me, my jokes and stuff.. i donno.. so nostalgic.. haha.. so i treated her a freshly baked waffle as she was damn hungry and the smell was damn nice as well... haha.. so we walked to the bus stop.. i waited for her bus to leave and waved.. feels like deja vu..

well.. tmr is my presentation.. wish me luck k.. anyway.. tonight on singapore idol, best performance for me was by olinda.. my personal fave, daphne was great as usual.. very lovely song.. anyway.. news has it that candice has pulled out from the competition.. stupid bitch.. cannot tahan the pressure dont join la.. then waste one space in the top 12 finalist... so in appropriate sia.. other talents could have made it to the top 12.. heck care la.. anyway.. there's this song that i've been playing on my cd player on repeat.. its called endless love by luther vandross and mariah carey.. its like the best love song ever.. i've been listening to it on repeat for like 2hrs now.. haha.. i love the song so much... hahaha..

k dats it, take care

my endless love
ALI

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

halo everyone..serene is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(serene typed this)
she is here.. without u noe who.. hahaha,.. she blushing again... lol.. i changed her bf name in her fone to M y DEAR mONKEY instead of My Monkey.. i added the dear.. she don like call her chee siang dear... she say very eee... haha.. k la.. don disturb liao.. me now in computer lab.. ppl are doin project... i jus ended my TQM presentation today... it was so scky for me.. i was atcually trembling during the presentation.. cause i had to present in front of another class.. sheryl is staring at my com now... hahaha.. hi alii hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali hi ali 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THAT WAS WAD SHERYL TYPE WHILE I WAS AWAY FROM MY COM!!!!!
hahahaaha.. anyway... it like 5.30 now... gonna go home soon... mumzie is cooking dinner and told me to come home... so i will.. okok... i gtg... toodles

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

this sat i got accounts test.. still haven study.. die die!!!

TQM presentation tmr.. must wear formal.. sucky..

HRM pass up and presentation is this friday.. haven finished the project yet..

nothing much happening nowadays.. life is boring.. i wanna go out... i wanna go shopping.. but i feel tied up with too many projects and tests.. exams are around 1 months time.. i want alittle break... shoudl jus get all this shit done and later can enjoy after the exam and projects..

i wanna go arcade..

wish me luck for presentation tmr..

my current occupation is a sri lankan maid...

oh shiva!!!
ALI

Monday, September 27, 2004

WELCOME TO MY LIFE

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
***
i jus watched the music video for britney's new song called My Prerogative.. and damn was it sexy.. haha.. its almost like porn i tell u.. her movements and stuff.. but nice.. britney is pretty.. ooo.. anyway... about today.. angela was obviously happy.. cause we saw her eye candy so many times dat day.. haha.. i m starting to fall in love with hillary duff.. haha.. i donno.. kinda feel that she got nice songs and a great voice..

anyway... ppl called me fickle minded cause supposedly i write about many girls that i like... let me clarify stuff..

japanese gal is a major old time crush.. she's attached now and i've gotten over it.. somehow..

ms yah yah hippie is jus a very good fren.. its not i love her or wad.. its jus frenship.. frenship that i lost... a friendship that i long for a again.. nothing other than frenship here..

hazelnnut is jus one of my eye candy cum crush.. haha.. nothing much there.. i noe shit aint gonna happen between us.. so i dismiss of the thought already... so now we're jus fren.. good frens...

anyway, saw fara on same train on the way home.. chatted and stuff.. started on our presentation material for TQM.. hopefully can be done by wed.. okok.. need to go.. must study for accounts test this sat.. so dats it.. oh yah.. found out that consumer behaviour final semester exam falls on my birthday... haha.. my birthday falls on exam time all the time.. haha.. anyway.. 1 more month and 1 day to it.. haha.. lol.. not so much looking forward to it though..

welcome to my life
ali

Sunday, September 26, 2004

today is a fine day..

woke up ard 12.30pm.. watched part of the japan hour on channelnewasia.. mumzie bought roti prata for breakfast.. well since its almost one and breakfast few hours ago, the prata and curry a bit cold.. mumzie told me to go bathe first while she heat up the prata for me.. but i dont wan bathe.. i love how i smell in the morning.. haha.. with messy hair and pimple cream stained face.. haha.. so i jus slog in front of the telly... had my supposedly breakfast.. yumz..

later went to my room and read lime magazine till its like 4.. haha.. then mumzie said she wanna go top up her ezlink.. so i accompanied her la.. then later walked walked at amk central.. central there jus open a valudollar shop.. it beside the shop and save at the big mac centre... i go in, so many aunties sia... haha.. jus bought some junk food.. dats all.. jus walk walk at central.. then mumzie need go POSB take out money.. then i complained to her that my atm card no more money.. only 3 bucks left.. how pathetic.. she then say i very spendthrift la.. spend money like running water.. haha.. but then my lovely mumzie transfered some money to my account.. i wont say how much in fear that ppl will kidnap me or rob me.. haha.. my eyes were gleaming!!!!! haha.. but then she told me that must learn to save and stuff.. YAY!!! money!!! lets see, hmm.. need get my hair done, new bag, sneakers, clothes, sweaters.. haha.. i m going wild... hahaha..

okok.. so anyway.. dat was today.. a fine day.. haha.. i love my mumzie.. and i love being her favourite son.. yippie!!

this love has taken it toll on me
she said goodbye too many time before
ALI

Saturday, September 25, 2004

today was a wonderful day

day started with me waking up on time..yay.. got ready.. left on time.. i dilly dally walk to sch..

go chn class.. sat with my only fren from chn class, fara.. all the other ppl in chn class nvr talk to me.. so i don talk to them.. anyway.. so me and fara chatted and stuff.. she got a lot of sweets.. haha.. then, today chn class, laoshi gave us a passage entirely in chn characters and ask us to read.. nobody could identify words.. haha.. except for one girl who was an indo chn.. i felt dumb.. must work harder.. haha.. must memorise like 80 over characters.. =_="

after chn class.. took same train as fara.. she going to orchard while i going to city hall.. so chatted along the journey.. she quite blur blur funny .. haha.. nice.. then i got down.. was suppose to meet 'hazelnut' later around 2 at suntec.. she's someone who i had a crush on quite some time ago.. hmm.. HAD, past tense.. i got over it liao.. anyway.. so i was early.. so kinda decided to get her a rose.. wanted to get her a blue rose.. cause blue roses signifies friendship.. but when i got to the florist.. she say blu rose must order three days in advance.. -_-.. so i decided on the next available color closes to blue.. purple.. haha.. kk.. so got her one.. the rose was like damn ex.. cost 3 times the price of roses they sell at JP.. but nvm la.. haha..

kk.. so i sat outside esprit wait for her.. she arrived like 45 mins later.. so gave the rose to her.. and went to eng wah to book tickets.. book tickets for white chicks at 5.40pm.. that was the earliest show.. so we had like 3hrs to kill.. so had lunch.. walked ard a bit later.. later went to the coffee connoisuer at millenia walk for dessert... i had tiramisu and mint mocha frappe.. nice nice.. chatted and later took some fotos with my hp.. haha.. nice nice..

went back suntec.. watched the show... the show damn funny.. was laughing throughout.. abit too loud for comfort.. hazelnut's comfort.. she was kinda embarassed.. so i tried to tone down a bit.. but like hazelnut wasnt feeling too well.. she was like tired and stuff.. and she told me that she felt like vomitting after having her dessert and drink at TCC.. so yeah.. hope she's alright... take care yeah.. she later wanted to go home after the show cause like not feeling too good.. and was tired... I UNDERSTAND.. kk.. so waited for her bus to leave.. then it was kinda early to go home... so decided to go walk walk by esplanade.. wanted to get some sea breeze..

ithe esplanade looks great at night.. due to the lightings and all.. then i walked by the bay.. memories of yah yah hippie gushed in.. damn.. and more worsely, they were so many lovey dovey couples by the esplanade publicly displaying their affection.. erm.. BAD IDEA of going esplanade for a sea breeze.. instaed of feeling relaxed, i felt worse.. double damn.. so i left quickly for home.. mumzie called saying my 2nd paternal uncle is coming over my house.. so i rushed back home..

reached home.. freshened up.. and they came.. like very nice timing..haha.. so chatted.. bla bla bla.. i checked out the wedding foto.. my cousin who recently got married also was there.. so talked bout the honeymoon.. they went australia and stuff.. they got us souveniours.. i got taffy sweet.. my mom got a tissue box cover with koala and kangaroo stuffed toys stuck at the side.. haha.. and my dad got a boomerang.. lol.. haha... thoughtful of them.. haha.. so took fotos and they left..

so now i m back on my com..eating the very sweet taffy.. but nice.. haha.. k la.. nothing else to say liao..

my milkshake brings all the boys to yard
and they're like, "its better than yours"
damn right, its better than yours
i can teach u but i have to charge
ALI

Friday, September 24, 2004

when i saw you..
i was afraid to talk to you..
when i talked to you..
i was afraid to hold you..
when i hold you..
i was afraid to love you..
now that i love you..
i'm afraid to lose you..

recap of my life..

thursday

nothing much happened

friday

TQM project finally done and passed up.. Consumer Behaviour Questionnaire finally typed out and sent for Veronica Wong's inspection.. HRM case study showed to teacher and ammendments are still to be made..

ccvm project came out with some stuff.. nothing much though.. smthing that can be easily achieved within 15minutes took forever to get done..

today i was pissed with a few ppl.. i tried my very best to control myself.. if not, serious tongue lashing would occur.. some people just dont know when to get serious and when to have fun..

to add salt to my wounds, i saw miss yah yah hippie in sch today.. she walked passed me, i looked at her.. she was with her fren so i said hi to her fren.. anyway.. so i looked at her.. she didnt even look at me, not even raising an eye.. i was invisible to her.. bad day

went to courts after sch to take some fotos of their products.. maddie, kwang yong, meixing n me.. had two cheesey hotdogs from golden village.. had a pineapple for dessert.. went home and acommpanied meixing aka BB1 on the train..

***

anyways, i've got a new background song.. its the instrumental version of Somewhere Over The Rainbow.. i believe that a rainbow will always appear after a storm.. the rainbow signifies hope.. i have yet to see my rainbow.. maybe because it wasnt a storm at all.. maybe jus a heavy rain.. dat why no rainbow has appeared..

anyways, tmr i'm going out with someone, been waiting for quite some time for this outing actually.. and now i get it.. i'm happy.. planning on watching white chicks tmr at suntec.. =D (at least smthing happy happened)

rainbows and storms
are always a norm
ALI

Thursday, September 23, 2004

last time

you used to be my best friend
i used to be able to tell you everything and anything
i used to love spending time doing nothing by the esplanade with you
i used to love the scent of escada ibiza hippie
we used to go to new cafes and jus chill
i used to love goin shopping with you
i used to give you strawberry fruitella
i used to love the way u gave ppl code names
i used to love the way u loved to take fotos of yourself
i used to love waiting for the sunset with you(although i never really saw it)
i used to enjoy seeing ur happy cute actions
i used to have you sing lalala with me
i used to have you resting your head on my shoulder
we made a promise to each other that if both of us were still single till we were 28, we will marry each other instead

but now

i have no best friend
i have no one to share my joys, gossips and sorrows with
i have no one to spend time by esplanade with me
i have no one that smells as sweet as escada ibiza hippie
i have no one to go in search of new nice cafes
i have no one to go shopping with( well actually i have)
i have no one to give strawberry fruitella to
i have no one to share code names with
i have no one that love to take foto of themselves (except me)
i have no one to watch the sunset with (technically)
i have no one to be cute to me
i have no one to sing lalala with
i have no one to rest their head on my shoulder
i'll be single for life

i really miss you.. i really do.. haiz.. Ms Yah Yah Hippie, i have no one except you..

yours to keep
ali

lalala... i m at school of business library with jiafang typing out the executive summary of my total quality management report.. kk.. have to go for class now.. toodles.. later..

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

today was a kinda hectic day.. started our TQM project yesterday.. today everyone met and pieced their parts together.. and miraculously from only 1 page to now a 15 page, excluding content, cover, appendix page and the fotos.. so woooohooo.. i kinda feel relieved and amazed how ppl who are very last minute can work very well and very efficiently when working under pressure.. haha.. but i still prefer not doing them last minute though.. haha..

anyway during tqm, i can sense winnie quah's discontent with something.. i have clairvoyance and i can sense ppl's feelings and usually i sense displeasure more.. and winnie was displeased with smthing.. i donno what but it was smthing.. and i can sense her displeasure towards me.. it was a slight feeling only.. but i donno.. but anyway... i m just gonna suck up like hell to all my teachers, ms winnie quah inlcuded.. i made that my new years resolution and i m jolly well gonna stick to it..

if the teacher is biased, i'll suck up to them even more and they'll be biased towards me.. haha.. lol.. in sec sch i sucked up to every single teacher.. haha.. and they all loved me.. i sucked up alot to my noticeboard section teacher in the cca.. so that i'll get more budget when i do the noticeboard.. and guess wad?.. i did.. and only i got extra budget when i asked.. other ppl, nope.. haha.. the power of sucking up..

okok.. anyway.. nothing much else happened today.. except for it was really fun to play street fighter with sheryl during report writing class.. haha.. cause i always kept winning.. hehe.. =P

was listening to class95 and chanced upon a lovely song.. it was ballad by whitney houston.. its called run to you.. here are excerpts of the lyrics..

I wanna run to you
Wanna hold you in my arms
And keep you safe from harm?
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away

Each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night, I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no-one cares for me

Oh, what's the sense
Of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean

I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew,
How much I wanna run to you

i wanna run to you,
i really do.
ALI

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

at present, i am sittin down sipping my cup of piping hot earl grey tea while listening to french jazz..

well, wad i really should be doing is my TQM report.. the one that is due tmr and which we started only this afternoon..

oh, wad joy is life in the midst of irony.

anyway.. life check for today.. not in the best of moods again.. tried not to show it soo much though... day started off bad.. very bad.. mumzie woke me up late.. had to rush for report writing class as there is a test today.. weightage 40%.. so i decided to take a cab.. came out of my lift and went straight to the side of the road and straightaway a taxi stop.. like he know i needed a cab.. so this cab driver rolled down the window and ask, "Eh! Ni yao qu bedok mah?".. firstly, do i look chn? or does my face say i wan go bedok or smthing.. sheesh.. so i replied, "Bu shi, xie xie"..

anyway, so i waited by the side of the road flagging my arms at passing taxis not caring whether they were hired or not.. suddenly it dawned on me, i looked like a hooker flagging my arms waiting for some old pervertic uncle to stop his lorry and pick me up and ask " how much?".. eee... anyway.. got a cab.. huge jam at lornie road.. the cab was like drive and stop and drive and stop.. so finally i reach sch lik e around 8.10.. still late.. darn.. rushed to class to begin my test..

the test sucked like hell... not enough time.. i had to come up with a report (data presented to us) by 2hrs.. i chose to write rather than type as i believe it'll take faster for me to write.. so dats it.. rushed rushed rushed.. had to crap the recommendations and finally die die must pass up to teacher cause it was 10.05 and the next class was having a lesson in that room.. so report writing class was sucky.. had a break.. had food.. i've been eating too much rice nowadays.. i'm so gonna get fat again.. darn.. so had visual merchandising class... boring as hell.. the only nice thing was when she told us that last time when she working she organise a lego competition.. and they were only 2 entries in a period of one month.. and the funny thing is that they were both siblings..

had another break.. decided to begin on our TQM project.. came out with the main points.. human resource lecture was cancelled.. so continued on the project.. points were delegated to whom shall do what.. and off we went to our respective computers to begin typing.. saw someone that i wasnt ready to see today after a certain event that happen yesterday .. i couldnt bring myself to look her in the eye.. maybe this things take time to get normal.. i donno.. will wait and see.. anyway.. went to accounts.. i sit there and copied last week's HRM notes while puisan help me copy accounts notes for the day.. she forgot to bring her notes.. so i ask her copy on mine lor..

after accounts, went back to library to continue on project.. had most of my service delivery done.. now left recommendations.. kk.. so now i shld really be focussing on my project.. tmr must go sch at 9am when class starts at 12 cause we need to complete the project die die..

yours
ali

Monday, September 20, 2004

this is a poem i wrote quite some time back in my very private diary

i gave up on love
a long time ago
i have had enough
or i believed so

the first time i saw you
the feeling wasnt there
i never knew who
and i just didnt care

but as time passes by
the feelings have changed
i just dont know why
all thiss feels so strange

we frequently see
each other in the lecture
you never knew me
i never knew u either

no words were spoken
no smiles were exchanged
but all this was broken
at toa payoh interchange

you looked so pretty
with your rebonded hair
but why should you want me
oh, i despair

we started to chat
more and more
this is not bad
i rest assured

time passes
and the feelings grew
i look forward to lectures
jus to get a glimpse of you

valentines day was around the corner
i plucked up my courage and wanted to be bold
"how about dinner?"
was what i should have told

instead i was dumb
i was just too speechless
the past made me numb
and the courage left

but to save me the trouble
and maybe the shame
you've burst my love bubble
when i saw your name

that night you added me
as ur friend in friendster
i was soo happy
except for one matter

i was so stupid
i should have known
a pretty girl like you
is never alone

and over the foto corner
was a lovely picture
of you and your boyfriend
so lovely together

my mirror shattered
eveything was over

*10.40pm 24/2/04*

well, i write poetry as a way letting my feelings out.. i find it therepeutic.. it doesnt have to be great poetry.. just my poetry.. well, today one of my most well kept poetry is out to the public.. i know this girl reads my blog.. so i dedicate this to her..

yours
ali

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Saturday, September 18, 2004

hihi everyone

for this entry let me talk bout today.. today is a saturday..

day started off with chinese class.. had chn class, passed up my homework... during chn class, fara sat beside me.. haha... yay!! at last got someone i know and can actually talk to sat beside me.. usually, its this indian guy i sit besdie with.. and i make no intentions about starting a conversation with him.. anyway, so we chatted bout stuff, bout our lives and stuffs la.. took fotos with my fone.. haha.. kk.. later teacher announced that from next sem onwards, chn classes have to be on a weekday.. damn that lee hsien loong.. because of him, now no sch on weekends.. i'm not complaining or wad.. but due to this policy, it would make our weekdays even more pack.. she asked the class wad day we want to change and everyday cannot.. cause there was at least 3 ppl who cant make it on that day.. we all insisted on saturday still.. so, she say she discuss it later with the language department ppl.. nice teacher..

ok.. so after chn class.. had made plans with sharif earlier about meeting up today.. we wanted to go out and catch a movie.. we were really looking forward to garfield.. i've received quite a few good reviews from frens.. okok.. so we met at city hall station at 1.30pm.. he had a very 'no comment' hair cut.. i told him not to go to that Hassan Barber near his house.. see lah, nobody listens to ali... see wad happen.. sheesh.. jus save a bit more money and cut nicer ones at salons.. k la.. anyway.. we decided to go book the ticket first.. so off we went to marina square golden village.. marina square was kinda under renovation.. so we had to walk a further journey to reach the cinema.. there was like nobody there.. bought the tickets.. due at 4pm.. had like 2hrs on our hands..

decided to have lunch first.. initially we wanted to go to carrefourre the canteen there.. cause they got great wanton noodles at cheap cheap prices.. but den we came across polar cafe n i remembered they serve quite nice spagettis there.. so we end up there... i had spagetti bolognaise while sharif had breaded chicken.. i love the place as the ambience damn nice.. very homely.. and not a lot of ppl.. and the food quite nice oso.. so we sat and chatted and ate for like one hour.. after dat, we walked ard suntec.. went to the arcade.. got this new drum machine game.. like those chn cum jap drum.. very fun to play.. but like very hard to catch up.. haha.. first time ma.. but quite fun.. then after that like 3.40.. so we had to rush back to the cinema at marina square.. when we reached we were actually early.. haha.. bought popcorn and drinks.. went in.. there were very few ppl.. 20 at most.. okay.. so they actually showed 16minutes of comercial.. we were so bo liao and timed.. haha.. show started..

GARFIELD SUX BIG TIME!!!
the entire show had a riciculously expected plot.. garfield bored me to tears.. the jokes were lame but soooo noot funny.. garfield looked a bit fake..the show was draggy and boring.. it was like a 30minutes show dragged to 1 hr 15minutes.. sucked.. it was sooooooo boring... soooooooooo damn boring.. after the show.. we both felt so bored and lifeless.. all that damn show fault.. and i wasted 8.50.. damn..

we then proceeded to MPH as sharif wanted to find a nice book to buy with the voucher we gave him for his birthdae.. he couldnt find anything nice.. so we left for orchard after dat.. wanted to go orcahrd library.. saw some lovely books under the shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella.. maybe can find at library ma.. so happily went there.. we reached and found the library closed.. they closed at 4 as got some annual staff meeting.. damn..

so then we decided to go far east.. cause i wanna get my haircut.. i wanna find hair salons that had super cool looking hairstylist.. those very cool gay hairstylist.. they've got great skills usually.. haha.. ended up shopping.. went to starbucks.. sharif treat me to a grande caramel frapuccino.. yummiez.. ThAnK YoU!!! =D.. haha.. so after dat shop again.. look for hair salons but it was like 7 plus liao... so most of the hair salon shops were kinda closed.. there is something with hair salons closing ard seven... found a nice salon.. but they charge 28 for a haircut.. like abit ex lei.. cause now i no money..

anyway.. so i met azlin along the way.. she was with her frens..technically.. haha.. she said my hair look nice enough.. no need cut.. but then dat day one of my freshmen ppl say my hair looks like a wig.. haha.. so i wan cut liao.. cause oso i find it a bit long.. haha.. so said hi and bye.. and continue on my quest insearch of finding the perfect hairsalon.. nil.. so in the end, sharif wanted to look for bookshops.. he is a fantasy fanatic.. i dont like fantasy.. haha.. so we looked at the directory and went to every bookshop mentioned there.. found one shop where he found a lot of good books.. he happy.. so i sat there read joke book.. he found 2books and bought it.. so we left.. wanted to have dinner initially also.. but feeling rather full.. due to the grande frap i think.. decided to take cab home.. but i needed to get my facial cleanser from watsons.. so had to go to watsons at lucky plaza..

found my facial cleanser.. and then took cab home.. the cab driver extra charge us $1.. we take cab there all the time and we were never charge extra one dollar there before.. we ask him.. he say this place is cbd area.. i argued that cbd means central business district and this place isnt.. city hall is, shenton way is, raffles place is.. but here is not.. he then said smthing that some erp stuff la.. smthing i donno about la.. so i jus shut up.. pissed.. i tell you, i was so ready to jus get off the cab and get another one.. i feel cheated.. some more the uncle was very attitude one.. idiot.. that bloody fucker.. i have a premonition, i see blood, tires on the sidewalk, metal chunks everywhere, glass shattered and his face.. damn him.. u dare cheat me, i'll curse u.. anyway.. i jus ignored that old bastard as i wanted to reach home early and then i talk to sharif instead.. so we chatted.. reached my house.. dropped me off outside my house..

reached home and typing this now.. okok.. heard that mediaworks and mediacorp have join forces.. haha.. expected.. ok la.. a bit sleepy now.. so good nite..

love me, feed me and never leave me
ali

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE to DENISE TAY YE HUI!!!

today was denise birthday.. we gave her a huge flower, those soft toy type that u buy from toys r us.. it was huge.. haha.. when i gave it to her, i deliberately said i don wan give her the plastic bag to put in.. hahahaha... so she can carry a big purple flower go everywhere.. lol.. got other present oso.. but yipin came late.. and the present with her.. and denise had to go off early.. so no time give lor.. haha..

next.. we finally came up with a reasonably good theme for our Courts window display.. yay!!

next.. today went to SP band concert.. went to suport xue chun.. ah chun my daughter.. haha.. so we rushed to clementi to find sunflower to give her later.. cause she like sunflower.. performnace was nice.. didnt quite like the sectionals perfomance.. ok.. basically the concert started with different sections performing a song.. they chose very bad songs to start the concert.. all so dead.. i was looking foward to the French Horns playing Canon.. but it was such a letdown.. i love canon in D minor performed by a string ensemble so i was looking forward to a french horn version.. it sucked.. only two sections enticed me... the euphonium cum tuba section that played the Euphonium Tuba Quartet.. that was really nice.. and after that was the overcreative percussion section.. they did some tribal dance thing.. cool..

after the intermision was the full band pieces.. started with the freshman playing 2 pieces.. nothing nice except for the enthusiathically overanimated condutor... then later came the full band.. inclusive of yr2, 3 and alumni.. it was damn nice then.. but their pieces were not that nice.. Merry Widow, Ms Saigon and American Grafitti was nice.. they did an encore playing Riverdance.. that was nice.. after dat.. we shouted xue chun's name.. a lot of times.. haha.. gave her the sunflower, took some fotos and left for home..

reached home ard 11pm.. saw my neighbour jus now at 7eleven while i was buying a bottled frapuccinno.. he was buying a 12 pack durex performa condoms.. he was with his gf.. haha.. i smiled at him.. and he saw wad i saw.. and he was a bit paiseh.. so before he left, i told him, "Jia You"... haha.. he laugh.. his gf was at the magazine part.. so she never noticed us.. haha.. anyway.. i'm kinda addicted to lattes nowadays.. vanilla lattes.. haha..

k la.. Ms Yah Yah Hippie bdae is next week.. we kinda not talking to each other due to some reason that i dont wan to mention.. so i donno whether to get anything or not.. we were such great frens.. i miss all that.. but now i can sense when ppl avoid me.. so i think i dont get her anything la.. she dont wan talk to me anyway.. haiz

going out with sharif tmr to watch Garfield.. finally!! haha.. i want to watch that show sooo much..

PS: thank you angela for doing my chinese homework for me...

i got new nick name.. its ken.. angela is barbie.. and joy is stacie.. meixing is kelly.. haha.. we are the mattel(creator of barbie) family.. haha..

life in plastic, its fantastic
ali

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE to KWANG YONG!!!
may you be less lame and less annoying

anyway

today was a great day for me..

sch was to start at 2 for me today.. but met up earlier with serene, maddie n rex to go to queensway shopping centre.. we wanted to get kwang yong a birthday present.. his birthday is today.. so we met at 11.30 at queenstown and proceeded to queensway by bus.. i haven been to queensway since forever.. so i was really lookin forward to this trip.. i hear ppl all say queensway the stuff all very cheap stuff.. cheap bags, cheap shoes, cheap clothes.. then can bargain.. they make it sound so cool.. i was kinda thinkin of maybe getting a few shirts or whatnots..

such a letdown.. the place reminded me of peninsular plaza meets city plaza.. i was lookin forwards to bag shops.. n i think i only saw one.. but no bags i like.. in the case of shoes, more a letdown.. so many shoe shops.. they all sell what all the other shop sells at the same prices.. what catastrophe.. such a embarassment to retailing strategies.. btw.. none of the shoes attarct me.. NONE.. then to clothes.. at least this made me slightly happier.. they had clothes that were kinda cool.. like those very in type.. the gayish fashion is like so in right now.. gayish clothes are like those that POA (people of asia) sells.. and they've got all the gayish clothes stuff there.. but the prices werent as low as i expected.. quite normal prices.. prices that i can find at other more established brand names.. so i didnt get anything..

had lunch there.. carbonara.. it was kinda watery.. must be because no eggs.. cause eggs damn expensive.. my mum said that now NTUC got a policy.. u must spend at least 20bucks at ntuc beofre u can buy eggs.. lol.. donno why.. find it retarded... anyway.. the carbonara was nice.. but wasnt up to its value.. cost 5.50 at those foodcourt.. jus nice la.. but not great.. went to sch by cab later with them..

reached sch.. saw mrs veronice wong.. told me to get ready and get the goody bags from the retail studio.. so went to change into my formal attire.. i had to help out in the registration booth and ushering of the VIP guests to the reception corner and stuff.. i find it soo cool.. haha.. as i directed them to the rception, i saw that the reception place served haegen daaz ice creamm.. wooohooo.. so i took one.. yummz... haha.. the later must direct them to lecture theatre 8 for the seminar.. so after this snobbish ppl left, i had another ice cream.. hahaha.. yummz.. then after dat went down to registration area to see if there's anything else to do.. everyone was already in the theatre.. so now very free.. mrs wong told us to go up to the reception and have some food if we were hungry.. i was like hell yeah.. they sereved great food..

i ate and ate.. yummz.. and for desert, guess wad.. ice cream again.. hahaha.. yummz.. lol.. chatted a bit with liat as he was doing the fashion show and now he's having food break.. haha.. so yay.. chatted with angela as well.. so then i sian.. nothing else to so.. so went inside the theatre to listen to the seminar a bit.. anyway.. during te lucky draw, yipin, a classmate of mine won the first prize.. a 17inch samsung plasma tv.. whoah.. so coolz.. so jealous.. haha

azlin said i looked nice in formal wear today.. i sooooooooooooo happy... soooooooper doooooooper contented.. **ali hops arounds in joy*** haha.. that comment made my day.. see, ts so easy to make me happy.. haha.. k la.. nothing much more to say..

i found nice lyrics..
UNASHAMED by WHITNEY HOUSTON

If I changed my mind,
if I changed my faith,
every time a stop light signaled
each time I made mistakes

I don’t think that I
would be where I am today
I live my life without regrets
what you see is
what you get

And I'm
Unashamed of the life I lead
unashamed of the strength on my knees
of choices I’ve made,
of the love that I’ve saved
of the things I've done,
my belief in the One

Unashamed of the words of my friends,
i know who they are
make mistakes, make amends
follow my instincts, my star
on my sleeve i wear my heart
unashamed

Adding up my life, it totals all my dreams
I'm counting all my blessings
and the gifts I have received
Still there's always someone
something to overcome

Took all my life to understand
that I am what I am, who I am
unashamed
do you wanna know how it goes?
Do you wanna control how I feel?
Do you wanna stay in my life?
Then listen here,
and listen good,
you got to get it,got to get it,got to get it right!
Unashamed


love
ali

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

i got a few announcements..

i am currently a part time bikini waxer.. feel free to contact me to inquire bout my services.. by appoinment only..

next, recent studies have shown that females who have more sex have better complexion and shinier hair.. therefore, for those who wanna have those effects feel free to contact me.. by appointment only..

lol

oh yah.. to serious matters
3 ppl from my yr 1 class are now attached..

charlene + kang ming
jiafang + weiliang
cecilia + alvin

the wierd thing is that they all got attach during this semester.. haha.. good luck to all of them.. may they have a happy love live..

monday

boring as hell.. i actually did my accounts tutorial for dat day.. haha.. i actually find it quite easier to cope with what he's talking bout if i did the tutorial.. like no need rush to copy the answers also.. haha.. maybe i'll start being nerdy soon.. after dat had consumer behaviour lecture.. was talking throughout the whole lecture.. wasnt paying attention one bit.. feel bad.. i wanna be nerdy.. my project like not moving.. i want to do.. but soooo lazy.. maybe thursday start ba.. haha.. next week is report writing exam.. i'ma gonna freak out.. it not open book.. dont think can remember the entire format of the report.. damn..

watched last episode of Friends.. was a really touching episode.. lots of crying and stuff.. the show was about moving on to a new life.. and how hard it is to move on.. then ross confess his love for rachael.. but rachael still left for paris.. in the end they cry cry then rachael appear at ross's door.. so touching.. haha.. the ending was nice.. a bit expected.. but nice..

tuesday

had only 4hrs of sleep or lesser last night.. was playing puzzle bobble.. haha.. the game quite addictive lei.. then morning must go class at 8.. so early.. was soo sleepy.. had a lovely conversation with Mrs Lugg (report writing teacher) found out that she's british and still is.. has a 30yr old son who plays lead guitar.. and a 27 yr old daughter.. talked about everything.. i find her cool to chat with.. also to keep myself awake la.. haha.. nah.. but seriously she's nice... had a 3hr break after dat as visual merchadising class was cancelled due to the fashion show which my teacher is in charge of.. angela was modelling later..

so a few of us, serene, yipin,meixing, ky and me went to JP as we decided to get angela smthing.. we wanted to make banners initially.. like "ANGELA ROX!!!".. but a bit troublesome.. haha... then serene or someone decided to make pom poms out of rafia strings.. but like nobody would dare to carry it later.. so in the end decided to jus buy her roses.. bought her 3 roses.. a two toned yellow rose, a light pink rose and a white rose.. haha.. they smell nice.. but very light fragrance.. so yeah.. we rushed back to sch.. then when she was modelling, serene went to the front of the modelling platform stage thingy, and pass her the 3 roses in front of everybody that was watching.. haha.. she looked shocked.. abit..then i scream like woooooohooooooo!!!!!!.. then i noticed that i was the only one screaming... a bit sia suay.. haha.. but i dont care.. i jus laugh like siao.. then we rushed for lecture.. so dats the whole day..

dats it for this entry.. i found this lyrics.. i find it damn nice.. its from hillary duff.... I LOVE HLLRAY DUFF!!!!!! the song is called metamorphosis.. damn nice... its edited so that its shorter.. enjoy..

I've been so wrapped up in my warm cocoon
But something's happening, things are changing soon
Im pushing the edge, feeling it crack
And once I get out, there's no turning back

Watching the butterfly go towards the sun
I wonder what I will become

Every day is a transformation
Every day is a new sensation
Alteration, modification
An incarnation, celebration

Every day is a new equation
Every day is a revelation
Information, Anticipation
Onto another destination


love
ali

Monday, September 13, 2004

I'm gonna live forever. I'm gonna learn how to fly. [HIGH]
I feel it comin' together. People will see me and cry. [FAME]
I'm gonna make it to heaven. Light up the sky like a flame. [FAME]
I'm gonna live forever. Baby, Remember my name.

Sunday, September 12, 2004

okok.. let me talk about saturday and sunday in this entry..

saturday

had a Human Resource Management (HRM) project meeting.. supposed to meet at school at 10am at dover mrt station.. then we proceed to sch library which supposedly to close at 12 on saturdays..

okok.. my group mates consist of angela, joy, sheryl, jiafang and me.. joy was in bangkok so she cant make it.. angela called last minute say she got fever and headache so she cant make it.. so only left me, sheryl n jiafang.. and so i was early.. kinda expected it.. so i dilly dally.. decided to have breeakfast at FC6 while waiting for them.. guess wad?? FC6 was closed.. darn... so nvm la.. jiafang sms me say she n sheryl will be 20 minutes late.. well.. lucky me.. so i went down to the library to wait.. at least got aircon.. so i merrily skipped to the slibrary.. and was greeted by a lovely dark library.. appalled, i look at the opening hours.. oh, how lovely.. closed on saturdays.. lucky me..

so waited outside library for them.. they were shocked too when they arrived.. haha.. so we decided to go Jurong Point... reached jurong pt.. decided to do at KFC.. had the new meal they serve at KFC.. the one got burger, one chicken, popcorn chciken and a drink.. all for only 4.95.. wad an offer..

i feel cheated.. the burger was small.. the popcorn chciken was a ridicuolously small version... and the chciken was skinny.. must be the recent bird flu crisis.. everything become smaller.. its good that they never increase their price...
so we did the project.. really got stuff done.. and then came this aunty who said we cannot study there.. wads the fuck was wrong with that bitch.. KFC was like 3 quarters empty.. and she looked pissed that sheryl put her bag at the seat next to us.. and was also pissed when there was a dirty tissue there.. we couldnt be bothered.. we jus kept doing our project.. but like later she was like purposely cleaning our area there although there were nothing to clean.. she was like staring at us.. wad was her motherfuckin problem.. so we left..

decided to take a break.. went to arcade.. played bishi bashi, basketball game and some other stuff that gave out tickets.. we got enough tickets to get 3 casper scotchtape, and 3 pencil lead.. haha.. i took yellow for both.. sheryl took green and jiafang took pink.. so happy.. haha.. walked ard a bit.. decided to go library later to do project..

went to boon lay library which is in jurong point.. did project.. sheryl saw a cute baby.. and she has the problem of patting cute babies.. the mother wasnt near and the baby was with the young sister.. so she pat happily.. haha.. did the project and got half of it done.. technically.. so yeah.. sheryl went to meet her bf, albert.. and me and jf took train same direction.. she was meeting her bf, weiliang at city hall.. so i accompanied her to city hall till wei liang arrived.. they looked so happy and sweet together.. =)

at night, i watched a hindi love movie.. its about a guy who loved a girl but he's dying soon.. so he hides his feelings and help this girl find her true love.. he saw them till they got married and all.. in the end he died.. how tragic.. teared throughout the show.. well, i like this show as its not like typical love stories where everyone lived happily in the end.. so yeah.. after that.. watched scream 3 at night on chn 5.. i love the show.. i watched it like sooo many times already.. haha

sunday

really pissed today after reading someone's blog.. damn pissed.. confused and very annoyed with someone.. haiz.. to hell with it la..

i haevnt do my accts tutorial that needs to pass up tmr.. who wan go catch garfield with me.. my friend pang seh me.. sobz.. k la..

oh yah.. i got a new handphone... finally.. but the fone a bit old la.. its 6610i.. got camera... haha.. now i m gonna be a camera whore again.. haha..

dats it
nitez.. tmr got sch..

yours truly
ali

Saturday, September 11, 2004

sometimes we take ppl for granted.. we take those ppl we treasure alot especially for granted... this person has been a wonderful fren to u, yet you overlook the matter.. well, i get annoyed with ppl who dont keep their promises.. especially when i m lookin forward so much to that promise.. its like raising ur hopes so high and then when it falls, its gonna be bad..

well wad happen was that i actually got annoyed with a good fren of mine.. a fren i treasure a lot.. she was like forever replying my smses late.. and each sms returned would be a dissapointing one for me.. happened during this whole week.. and this whole week my mood was down.. then we were suppose to catch a show.. but she already had plans.. unforescene circumstances that cannot be altered.. i was really pissed..

after giving it much thought and after reading smthing she wrote, my senses finally returned to me.. why do we take ppl we treasure a lot for granted? its because we treasure them a lot and expect them to be there for us all the time.. but ppl have their own lifes too.. the world doesnt revolve ard me only (maybe money though)..

so now.. i apologise to this girl, u noe who you are.. i treasure our frenship alot.. although now u may have lesser time for me due to ur new commitment.. but i will still wait n treasure our time together.. whenever that is gonna happen..

okok, on to next matters

i read my sec 4 classmate's blog.. he loves this girl and she doesnt return the same feeling.. and he cut his wrist with a chopper.. four cuts.. like OMG!!! he say the pain wasnt as bad as his heart...

omg.. it was kinda scary to read bout it.. love is such a complicated matter.. its like a double edge sword... it can bring u up heaven or down to hell.. in my opinion, i dont like risks.. dats why i dont deal with love anymore.. its like why do ppl go thru love when they noe it may, high possibility that it may lead to pain.. its like why do ppl drink beer when its bitter.. it would bring u high for a while and later, the complications and also the hangover sucks like hell..

my thesis.. love is like beer
dont overindulge?


PS : application for TYSaLC is still open..

PS: i like maddie.. i can tell her evrything.. she sooooooo cool.. maddie rox!!!

yours truly
ali

Friday, September 10, 2004

gentle note : fat girls should never wear a tube top.. its obscene

Thursday, September 09, 2004

hEl000 public

my room now looks more spacious..... yay.. i slugged the entire of the after (cos i woke up at noon... lol) to rearrange all the furniture in my room.. i have been wanting to change the allignment and stuff.. and guess wad?? i got a new closet.. to hang more of my clothes.. i was kinda complaining my old closet no space.. then all the clothes like kanna squeezed.. so i had to rearrange the furniture to fit this closet.. yippie!!

lots of lifting and lots of shoving..

and the wonderful thing of spring cleaning my room is that u'd fiund the stuff that u thought u lost.. i found my old hair brush.. my long forgotten tweezers.. haha.. my cap.. lolz..

well.. apparently, i'm starting to dislike Escada Ibiza Hippie scent.. its the scent of dissapointment for me.. it may smell nice at first but after a while the smell dies.. how dissapointing.. so if u use that scent, stay away, far far away from me..

i had dreamed of watching the sunset at a beautiful beach with the one i love.. while we nimble on sandwiches and sipping tea on fine chinas as we whisper sweet nothings to each other.. and we looked into each others eyes and staightaway we noe that each of us were meant to be forever together.. living happily ever after..

sounds like a wonderful fairytale..

but

fairytales only happens in books..

as for my case, i'll make it a reality..

bring tea in a thermos flask, sandwiches from prima deli and a nice book.. go to sentosa palawan beach and sip my tea, eat my sandwiches and read my book while watching the sun set.. yay!!

preparing myself for the life of a YSL (which stands for Young, Single n Loaded btw if u didnt bother to read my previous update....)... must prepare myself mentally and physically..

i need to get a job so as to fulfill the loaded part of being a YSL..

PS: anyone noe of any job vacancies feel free to tell me kk.. but the job i can only do on weekends.. cause weekdays busy with sch..

i think dats it
sch hols ending really soon.. i hope life turns out well from me..

btw.. ppl, if u start seeing a certain attitude problem from me try to bear with it.. but it'll stay for a rather long time.. patience is a virtue and my attitude is crap.. jus keep saying 'i will survive'.. haha... assholes..

oh yah... i m thinkin of forming a club.. its called TYSaLC (pronouncd as tee-sulk).. The Young, Single and Loaded Community.. anyone wanna join... put up ur names at the tagboard.. haha.. if a lot of ppl want, it'll be cool..

haha


YOURS TRULY
Chairman of TYSaLC
ALI JOHARI

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

hEll00 public...

today, my whole class had to meet up at 10am at jurong point's Courts... so we met up at boon lay station and dilly dally had breakfast and stuff... and reached courts like 10.15am.. teacher and the debriefer was all there already.. they deberief us bout the stuff.. our class was seperated into two groups.. one would be focussing on the young executive theme and another will have the heartlander theme.. my group chose young executive.. so we had to decorate all the windows and the store fronts.. inclusive of the 3 stages at the front of the store..

must make a proposal and presentation on our ideas to the debriefer in 2 and a half weeks time.. and they will choose the best proposed idea.. and we will implement it.. well basically today, we jus took measuremnts of the place.. we check out the entire store to get a feel of what products to use.. from what i gathered everybody chose to use metallic stuff to represent the young executive.. i jus find it too cliche.. and in the end the whole thing jus looks too office rather than a young executive lifestyle.. well.. i donno.. the whole group ppl jus havent seem to conjure up anything yet.. except for neoprints, taking fotos, and epilators.. which somehow seemed to attract them more..

well.. i donno.. but i have this idea of creating something very exaggeratedly flamboyant, loud and very extravagant... very hip yet classy.. i wan to steer away from doing a traditional window.. i wanna work with colors.. i oso donola..

anyway.. after the project.. me and kwang yong were deserted by our felow classmates.. we were both left to take measurement of the platform that we'd be displaying the products on.. so after that.. we went to eat at banquet.. i love the wanton mee there.. haha.. so after that we walked ard jurong point looking for bags or jus trying to pass time.. haha.. we had sushi later from fiesta.. haha.. then i sian.. had a craving to play arcade.. but the arcade there a bit packed and expensive.... so decided to go to chinatown point to play arcade.. KY say the place there nobody and its an Xzone.. cool.. i got their VIP card.. then we go there play daytona.. i sucked..i played DDR.. haha.. used to love that game.. but i couldnt seem to catch up with the arrows.. haha.. losing my touch.. wanted to play para para.. havent play for so long lei.. i miss it.. but like paiseh.. haha.. k la.. so we lame ard at china town.. haha.. after dat go home liao.. after we shop for like 7hours (jurong point + chinatown).. quite long.. he quite funny and fun also.. haha.. k la...

anyway... well.. apparently, my projects are all in a mess.. nothing is done.. well, i learn this in sec sch.. if u want something done, then do it yourself.. so yeah.. i better buck up.. if they no time to meet up.. maybe i do a draft first.. so it'll be faster.. need to buck up and do my projects.. n need to do some revison..

stuff to do this hols
- clean my room
- rearrange my cd collection alphabetically
- rearrange my closet by color
- finishup as much project as possible
- watch some movies
- cut my hair and get highlights
- go thru some sch work if possible

movies to watch
- 13 going 30
- garfield
- white chicks
- princess diary royal engagement

well... i think dats it.. till my next update.. toodles

PS : anybody got meteor garden vcds.. got eng subtitles.. can lend me.. plssssss

YOURS TRULY
ALI JOHARI

Monday, September 06, 2004

H3L000 PUBLIC.....

well yesterday was my third eldest paternal couzin's wedding.. well i am the 7th eldest in the paternal side.. cool event.. usually malay weddings occur under void decks where guests have to withstand the heat and lack of space.. well this cousin of mind that comes from the 'flithy rich, classy and highly snobbish' paternal relatives and he held his wedding at a community centre.. those that had a staged and air con (god bless the creator of air con) and employed decorators, clothes and make up artist from RH fashion (a very expensive malay boutique) and a deejay, 2 professional fotographers and a video redorder person..

anyway... it was kinda enjoyable event.. had alot of food that will contribute to risk of high blood pressure, stroke, diabetes, obesity.. it was a buffet styled event.. 3 bases (plain rice, briyani rice, fried bee hoon), followed with 10 different dishes, 5 types of drinks and 12 different deserts.. yeah.. i think dat was it.. food was fabulous.. while they were on stage, two wedding costume changes..

the highlight of the event was spotting malay aunties with heavy jewellery.. one of my aunt alone was wearing 3 thick gold necklaces, 8 huge gold bangles, 5 diamond studded gold rings, 2 dangling pearl earings and a mega huge extra glittery brooch.. OMG!!! eyes pain!! no wonder she came wearing shades.. and the foto grapher was even joking about removing the flash as he said i was bright enough with all her jewellery during the family fotos..hahaha.. funny.. so yeah.. i tell u ar.,. those robbers dont need to rob banks.. they should rob weddings.. surely alot of jewellry one.. sure rich..hahaha..

anyway.. lets talk bout today.. i went out with wei liat.. been quite some time since we went out together.. cools.. decided to meet up for movies.. he was 30 MINUTES LATE!!! n he always say i late.. haha.. so we went suntec to catch Cinderella Story.. cinderella is my all time fave fairy tale and i m soo in love with hillary duff.. wad a great combo.. but first i went to mini toons to get marshmallows and smuggle in to watch the movie.. haha..

anyway.. so watched it.. so nice.. i love the show.. yay.. so happy.. had lunch at polar cafe.. i never knew they serve pasta and western food.. kinda cool.. food was nice.. i had the marinara.. it was nice but not as great asbreeks's.. almost same price also.. 8.80.. anyway.. after dat liat needed to meet up with his classmates to do project at 5.30.. haha... i still haven start mine.. we so last minute.. lol.. k la.. really enjoyed going out with him.. we chatted bout our life at polar cafe.. so cool to chill with close frens.. but not all frens i'll share my life experiences with..

bought another botttom from 2 degree.. this one looked cool.. it looked like jeans with urine stains.. haha.. u wait till i wear la to find out.. haha.. i wanted to buy that le coq sportif pullover.. i love the color and the material.. cost 49bucks.. but then when i tried.. looked a bit tight.. need to go gym.. i'll wait till my rashes fully recovers n then will decide my gyming schedule with liat.. i wanna loose my flabs.. haha..

hmm.. u noe wad.. i read an article on New Paper Sunday.. n when i read it, there was this ray of hope that i saw.. the article was on YSL... nah.. not the branded YVES SAINT LAURENT but YSL stands for Young, Single n Loaded... yeah.. studies have shown that more and more ppl are remaining single even till after 35.. this ppl focuses more on career life.. the article was on this guy who is a YSL.. he spends at least 5000 bucks on a watch.. and even up to 30,000bucks for a chopard watch.. woohooo.. sounds cool to me.. this guy lives in a two storey shop house that looks like paradise to me.. he has 3 dogs to entertain him at home.. so cool.. you noe wad.. i hate kids.. i find them annoyingly irritationg and noisy.. haha.. my dream is to own a Jaeger-LeCoultre watch (mind you this things cost at least US$6800 and range till US$200,000 or more).. cause Tag Heur and Baume and Mercier watches are jus too beneath me.. haha.. and i dont want to get married.. i believe that love is jus a perishable item.. so why get married.. live life and enjoy.. and i wan be a big retailer.. haha.. I WANNA BE A YSL!! woohooo!!!!!!

that was my hope.. my only hope for the future..

maybe i'll post some fotos of the wedding soon..

i wanna cut my hair spiky again.. then i wanna get blonde highlights.. but for now.. get use to my bangs.. haha.. maybe i'll do so during the hols.. yeah..

i wanna get more clothes.. my fashion sense is starting to evolve.. haha.. its getting more casual.. like t shirt, berms n slippers.. last time it was t shirt, jeans, shoes.. haha

i wanna get a new bagpack.. but i saw this nice puma sling bag for 49bucks.. cools.. but i want a bagpack.. sian.. saw one at bugis village for 25 bucks.. haha.. wonder which i'll get..

i wan get new addidas or quicksilver flips flops n a le coq sportif shoe..

i'm still waiting for my father's company to give out that dan bursary to me.. supposed to be sept 11 then kanina donno wad happen they postpone to oct 2.. i wan my $400 bucks...

my dad jus gave me 100bucks for my monthly shopping allowance.. usually he give me 50 or 70bcks.. this month he extra nice.. haha.. n i took that money and splurged on ESCADA's SENTIMENTS pour homme fragrance ...wahahaha.. smellss fantabulous.. i love ESCADA... RALPH LAUREN got this new frangrance called RALPH LAUREN romance silver.. smells quite nice also.. woooohoooooo!!!!

k la.. tmr must go to jurong point's courts for the retail briefing as we have to decorate their store next... free labour.. those cheapskates... haha.. anyway its at 10.. so mathafarkin early.. and its sooooo fuckinn far away.. damn la.. must sleep liao..

ok then..till my next update.. toodles

YOURS TRULY
ALI JOHARI