MY PRAYER.. MY WISH
written by me

oh lord
help me overcome these hurdles
give me the determination and strength
for i need your guidance to see me through
the darkest of times

oh lord
for i know that all hurdles are challenges
and i know that all challenges are opportunities
and now i seek ur help not to clear all this hurdles
but to help me jump over every each one of them

oh lord
i ask of you to clear my mind of distraught
for i need the space to focus
the strategy to overcome the future hurdles
as i see they are near

oh lord
in the past, i fell trying to jump over hurdles
i've bruised and i've hurt
but the pain has enlightened me
and i try to learn from experience

oh lord
i foretell the hurdles coming again
and i fear that i will bleed again
so i call for you as i need your help
so come to my aid, come to my aid

oh lord
i ask for strength, determination, clear of mind
focus, will to move on and to carry on, health
and calm my body, spirit and soul
for i cannot do if i am distraught

oh lord
i ask of you to keep my face forever smiling
and not remove the mask that people see
for they know and prefer who they see
and not the real me

oh lord
i ask of you to cherish and love those who criticise and condemn me
for i know they obviously lack your love and blessings
and thus they are like lost sheep with no direction
as they know not wad they do to me, forgive them

oh lord
i ask of you not to repudiate of me
as i have countlessly did as such to you
for i am only human and succumb too easily to my weakness
and now i am on my knees ashamed of my sins
forgive me

oh lord
finally i ask of you to recognise my wishes
for they are leading to my dreams
and dont shatter the chances of my dreams
for i only have my dream and only my dreams

**blessed be to those who have the lord reigning in their heart**

There are too many questions
There is not one solution
There is no resurrection
There is so much confusion

And the love perfusion
You make me feel
You make me know
And the love vibration
You make me feel
You make it shine

There are too many options
There is no consolation
I have lost my illusions
What I want is an explanation

There is no comprehension
There is real isolation
There is so much destruction
What I want is a celebration

May all be well with mankind
May the leaders of the earth in every way
Protect the earth by keeping to the right path

May there always be goodness
For those who know the earth to be sacred
May all the world be happy

Whatever I do
Whether my body, mind, sense, organs, intellect, self
Or out of natural inclination
I make it all an offering to
The all-pervading supreme being

Peace

hEl00000 public... okok... so today i continue about yesterday updates kkz...

so where did i stop... oh yah... thursday... so thursday is a full lecture day... sch starts at 12... so got chance to wake up a lil later cos yesterday nite got american idol till 12... jasmine rox.... lol... u noe jasmine has this whole package thing she's pretty and stuff and got a marvellous voice... okok... i am biased... but its kinda true.... she does look grea especially with that flower in her hair... hehe... fantasia and la toya cool too... that john peter lewis is kinda overdoing it... its like his deperate for votes and has to result to entertaining america rather than foreshowing his talent of voice... but the shows called american idol... not sooper voice idol... if he's entertaining maybe america dumb enough to be blinded by his antics and vote for the pen salesman.... i also have to comment on john stevens... u noe the redhead and extremely pale guy... he kinda looks like archie from archie comics... the guys are ok... nobody i kinda favor... i oni like latoya, fantasia and jasmine.... lol... anyway... sidetacking again.... thursday.... arrived for lecture a bit late... like kinda overslept... so like when i came in the lecture hall, the lecture has already begun.... stats lecture... so dont really mind... so like the seats with my cliques are all taken in the row... so i sat behind them... with this othe group of ppl that i noe but not from my class.. they're one of my classmates friends... so it was like okay... at least i knew them... ended up toking with the gal next to me... very chirpy gal... yay... anyway... it was like that until like lunch... again got 2 hr lunch... so sucky... so end up go self access centre play com.. so sianz... then got accounts lecture.... so it was like that lor... then reached home watched american idol results... oh yah... clay made an appearance... he sand solitaire... wad a boooooooring song.... but he displayed an-american-idol standard performance... cool... i really hope kimberly locke will perform.. i'll be soo happy... so in the results show, leah labelle, that russian gal with the mum with red curly hair got voted offf.... hooray... she sucked anyway... and the performance she gave was sooooooo below standard... so it was like dat....

now... friday... hmmm.. econs tutorial was cancelled for some unforseen circumstances.... lol... hooray... no need do tutorial... so it was like i have spss test later... OMG... i suck at spss lab... btw... its like a statistic thing u use computer form tables and search for frequencies and sorts... its lame... but we have to learn... to make it worse our teacher sucked at teaching... so mine was the first session at 11... so did it... first page quite ok... then second and third page i knew nuts about... so damn fucked up sia.. so like dat la... sure fail one... then after that got three hour break... so decided to study for the econs test the next day... went cafe to study but like cannot concentrate sia... so went back to library to study lor... then later went to self access centre to study instead cos library a lot of ppl... so at self access centre more worse... i end up reading the teens magazine, archie comics and cleo mags there... was supposed to go mosque but decided not too cos still fucked up bout stats... and its not good praying when u're fuccked up... lol... okok... i was lazy... shhh... then got IT class at 3.... so sianz... understand nuts bout it... feel so fucked up by microsoft access... so dry... then later at night decided to study econs but end up watching survivor... then later tired so leep lor...

saturday..... OMFG... i haven touched econs... so i started econs at 7.... got chn class at nine and econs at 10... so it like chn class like go oni one hour... very bo liao... so decided to jus study econs instead... so like flip thru and try to squeeze as much info as possible into my puny brain... aaaaargh... stressed... then came school on time... the econs test was ok except for a few questions behind... then after that met up with cd project mates to discuss... took like 1hr... my group doing body art... like tattoo, henna, piercing, nails... those kind of stuff... i was in charge of temporary tattoos... so kinda did my researched today liao... so after the meeting needed go library to return a book.... one of my friend wanted to join me... so cool... yeah.. at least not going alone... suppose jus to go for like 1-2hrs... but in the end wad was suppose to end at 2 ended at 5++... lol... had fun though... took fotos... yesterday update got my foto... took it at westmall... after that go home very tired... then i buy this magazine call manja... guess who's on the cover... SITI NURHALIZA!!!!!!! omg... she on the cover again.. fr wad like 5 times oredi... soooo happy... shee soooooo pretty... hahaha... so i bought it... yay... o happy day...

then today is a sunday... did nothing much... jus lazed around infront of the teevee... watched hindi movie at 1... sianz.... pla com.. my mom cooked mee rebus... damn nice... eat so much.. later bloat up like one big fishball again... haiz... must start on my new nvc diet... nvc = no visible carbo.... must discipline... need to lose more weight....

note to self : begin nvc diet on monday...

so that was my whole entire week... so now i'll leave u with a foto of me and my wonderful and sooper helpful fren barney.... this foto we took when we took a rollercoaster somewhere.. notice the wind blowing thru our hair... hahahaha... i look so delirious in this foto.... and barney has his cheesy smile again... lol... no offence... till next time... toodles...

hEl000000000 public...... it that time of the week again... the time where i reflect, recap, reminisce and bitch around on the happenings of the week... so lets begin the countdown...

monday... hmm... so monday was the last free monday i have... the lesson that was supposedly to be there will commence again this coming monday... and its a presentation day... i cant wait... anyway... so monday i went out with my mommy since she too having the holidays due to the sch holidays.... so we went amk central walk walk... buy some stuff like food and home stuff... u noe la... nothing much happen though.... then at night got supermodel show.. nice...

tuesday... was tutorial day.... got accounts in the morning, stats later and IT in afternoon... did CD project during lunch.. after sch went to bugis a while cos my fren wanted to buy a mirror but after aimless searching and really tired feet... we found none.... then she finally decide jus to go for the first one she saw... oh yah... i oso bought this bag which i have been eyeing for weeks... search the entire of singapore for the bag but cant seem to find it anyway else but at bugis there.. so the puma bag cost me a whooping 49 bucks... and then like dat lor... so i went home tired... then i sat down in front of the tv and watch the entire of must see tuesday... there was this show at 10 called incredible tales... it was some true life ghost stories re-enacted... the show was so dull... it was not even scary at all... the only thing that kept me watchingn was the host... utt... lol... that was such a gay statement...

wednesday... so it was like a lecture day.. econs followed by accounts and then stats.... was quite early so went to sch to have some food first.... when i mean foood, what else can it be.... nuggets.... i m so deeply in love with the nuggets in fc6 aka the biz foodcourt... so went for lecture... amazingly i was quite attentive in class and through the lectures except for the stats lecture... he's jus too boring... so it was a quite a good sch day... afterwards i had a critical reasoning skills(CRS) class... but i didnt do the homework and the lesson a bit boring... so i decided to skip it and go out with my fren, barney... so we went to watch a movie, haunted mansion at marina square, the usual place... whoever said that haunted mansion was not worth watching is like so retarded... it was fantabulous... the show was great... enjoyed it much.... then we went play para para at the secluded arcade... had so much fun.. then got this new machine there... but it was really a new game la... it was called mocap boxing... u put on the gloves and fight the person on screen... it really cool.. but wad attracted me more that it had this column where it put how much calories u've burned playing the game... damn cool right... then play guilty gear 2... play alien invasion game thing... then like dat lor... then barney wanted to cut hair... so went to some 10 dollar shop there... the effects were that nothing look different except for maybe it looked neater... i always believed that this 10 dollars haircut for 10 minutes thingy are just a sham... it a waste of money... got the person aint got no skills and he has to work against time which of course makes it a bit of a rush.... i prefer salons though... although u have to pay a bit more... its the quality that counts... i want a nice hairstyle and enjoy cutting my hair as well.. i used to frequent peter and guys at marina... but since it closed i now patronise jean yip... they've got great hairstylist... but their service a bit slow la... but then still ok lor... if my hair looks nice... then i dont mind... anyway... so its like dat lor... then watched american idol when reached home... i have to say the finalist this season are much better than last... they've got great vocals and are quite good looking... so that was it... quite enjoy my day...

ooo... i continue the days happening another day kkz... wanna go watch tv.... till tmr... tata...