fellow bloggists... this few days i'll be in no mood to post anything... dats y u see even though i holiday, i never post anything everyday... so i'll jus give u lyrics to songs or poems, or smthing i write... this is like my little posts... so go figure... this lyric post here describe wad i am feeling somewhat... i think... aiyo... i donno wad to think already la... so if anybody free and want to go out for kopi... feel free to ask me...

I've gotta go, find another direction.
I've gotta go, I wanna get your attention.

I am so sorry that it went this way.
I just can't hold on anymore.
The feeling's gone, I must move on.
There's nothing left worth fighting for.

I can't love you anymore, anymore.

Go. Find what you're looking for.
Go. You've lost me that's for sure.

I've gotta go, find another direction.
I've gotta go, I wanna get your attention for once.

I've never been in love before.
But this is where it has to end.
I just can't love you anymore.
Don't even want you as a friend.

I can't love you anymore, anymore.

Go. Find what you're looking for.
Go. You've lost me that's for sure.

It all started in another dimension.
You may have took my breath, you didn't take my dedication.

They say that love is blind.
I've never been the leaving kind.

I've gotta go, find another direction.
I've gotta go, I wanna get your attention for once.

i should be a songwriter... quit business maybe... be a geisha... i donno... wads wrong with my life.... why did i take business... should have migrated to japan and sold curry fish head... the world's a plastecine ball... and my feet is sinking in... results gonna come soon... maybe thats the reason why i have distorted my little pea brain... i am afraid... afraid to fail... but i am to blame of course... i am not stupid... but somewhat i was stupid not to focus in class... well... i had a policy of no regrets for things i've done.. but i somehow cant keep that up... i regret not studying well for my Os... then i didnt get good results... then i couldnt get in the course i wanted... and then i had no other options but choose another course that was somewhat similar to my dream... but was a lousy place to study in... i didnt get that too.. so i got to my second choice.... stoop[id business course... i hated math.. now i take subjects that i totally have no interest in... should have studdied harder and gone to jc... maybe at least the stress would have kept me sane... now... i am tooo free.. ppl... poly is soooooooo boring that u practically have a life... should have join lasalle... took fashion design and escape to milan and worked for versace or dolce and gabbana... but no... i had to do stuff like this i donno why oso... so now i in poly, not stress, but regretful... regret going poly? nope... maybe yes... i donno.... well... that's like a little excerpt from my regretful academic life.... now go oon to my normal life... wait i dont have a life... i go sch, sit at home play com and watch tv... well.. maybe u call that life... but like i do noe there are people who are living worser off than me... oh like for fucking jesus christ sake... i don care... i cant wait to be rich... get plastic surgery... and plan suicide bombing... well.. news yesterday... palestinian bombed irael, 3 died... israel retaliated and attacked palestine... 23 dies... omg... and israel is complaining of peace talk not working... aargh.. the cruel agony and irony... this world is like a lump of shit with dung beatles governing it... where is god... why is there pain and suffering... why is there war... why are people homeless... maybe they should have the general elections to elect the more likely candidate to be god... sometimes i say that god is narcissitic... look at me... think of me... pray before me... LIKE... OK... we get it already... while u are getting people adorning you, we might as well solve this little mess u've created on earth... maybe we shouldnt blame god... maybe should should juss blame adam or eve... either one of these stoopid buffoons for eating that poison apple or smthing... and because of their romance and love or smthing... we are now on earth... all ur fault... fuck you eve... dumb bimbo... and for goodness sake we are working for a narcisistic man... that has soooo got to create a resolution for peace... while that man up there... admire himself by demanding people to adorn him... we down here might as well, use our brain which was supposedly given to us by mr narcisistic... we must create a special bomb or smthing... put it in the core of the earth and kapoof... we all die... maybe somewhat that better... no more prob... everyone will jus rot in hell now... while mr narcisistic watches HBO... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.... soooooooooooooooo... if we cant depend on him... lets jus depend on ourself... why do we look at our regrets... we should jus look ahead in the future... after all everything hapens for a reason... and mr nacissitc up there works in really mysterious ways... well, if he works of course... does he? i donno... maybe i m jus lookin at the surface of things... maybe i donno either... life more complicated right? i donno... maybe la... but hey.... i neeed my coffee... need to sit down and sort out my thinkin... maybe only then i can achieve nirvana... blessed be...