heloo public,

sometime a certain song will evoke a certain emotion inside of us. there's this malay song called cinta(love) by kris dayanti and melly goeslow, two of indonesia's finest divas, which is a very sad song. the music video was revolvin ard a lesbian theme. it was like how this girl loves another girl but the love isnt returned. its really sad. i'm somewhat touched by the music video and the song although i'm not lesbian or gay.

its like in life everyone is special in their own way and when the 'special thing' is an obstacle for the person to lead a happy life then its sad. its sad when u give your heart to someone and that someone rejects it. its sadder if the main reason of the rejection was due to ur 'special thing'. doesnt that jus make you hate being 'special'?

as we face many life experiences we start to learn more about life. and we start to wonder what our purpose of existence is. they say everything happens for a reason. i'm still waiting for many of the reasons.

many things are still left without reason. slowly we learn to accept that we may never find out the reasons to our many questions on life. all we can do about it is jus to accept the fact that shit happens in our life. many things that we dont want to happen, happens. i've learnt that its useless to ponder bout the matter and fret about it. it'll jus weigh us down. we may feel emotional about it. but we have to get over it lest is becomes a burden. jus keep moving, move on and keep moving on till we find a greener pastuer. where the sun shines and our shadows fall.

hmm. that was a kinda serious entree. not the typical himbotic ones u usually read in my blog. i may look himbotic or sound blonde but that doesnt mean my life is a bed a roses. even a bed of roses has thorns. well jus think bout it yeah.

back to my usual entries,

well, today woke up at 11am. washed up and got ready to go out and meet tuna at amk library. we were suppose to study for our chinese exam this coming tuesday. there was a lot of people at amk library, especially kids. i ended up enjoying a caramel cafe latte and a chicken mayo focascia sandwich while flippin thru style magazine and men's folio. it was quite fun.

tuna's a nice fren to go out with cause she's funny and she find my jokes funny. i like ppl who have the same wavelenght as me. and mind you, there are very few intelectual beings out there. anyway. so we studied till 4.45. library was closing so we had to leave. it was raining heavily and tuna had a small umbrella. we shared and end up still getting wet. haha. went to the arcade for a while and played daytona. fun fun. she had to leave afterwards to meet up with her bf.

so i went to pay the bills and visited shop n save for a one hour grocerry shopping. i felt like cooking smthing so i bought the ingredients. and whenever i say i wanna cook smthing, it only means one thing. pasta. bought ingredients to make my creamy mushroom chicken pasta. reached home and started to cook. i think i need to get my own apron. the one i'm using is my mum's and its pink with one of hello kity's fren on it. i think its called melody or smthing. lol. anyway. the food was done and tasted as usual. very creamy, with extra mozarella, extra parmesan, extra chicken, extra button mushrooms, extra capsicum and oh yah, low fat milk for a healthier choice. lol. my parents have started to accept my cooking and all the creamy pasta.

well, dats my life. very yummy. i love to cook. its like chemistry and experimenting with stuff and when ur creation turns out nice. u feel satisfied. watched the apprentice. raj got fired. he's the guy who always wear bow ties. i think bow ties look cool. maybe i should get one. poor thing la he got voted off. there were many more useless bums in the group. wad donald trump said was true, in life we're bound to work with ppl we dont like. but wad matters most is the end result. so jus be professional and keep all that aside.

well thats it for this entry. i leave u with some malay words. its from a lyric that came out from the top of my head. i also enclose a translation for those non-malays.


biarkanlah diriku sendirian tanpa mu
bukan maksudku untuk membisu

mungkinkan bersama dua jiwa ini
dalam mencari cinta sejati

mungkinkah segala derita dijiwa
akan terubah kini


translation:

jus let me live alone without you
its not my intention to remain silent

maybe these two souls might be together
in the quest for true love

maybe all the hurt in this soul
wil begin to change


life in plastic, is not all fantastic
ali