elo peeps,

i see myself failing Quantitative Analysis(QA) and Business Law(BL). i totally had no clue on the ongoings in the QA tutorial. i jus copied all the answers diligently and blindly. even the QA lab exercise was frsutrating enough to figure out. curses. anyways, during BL tutorial, i was jus simply stumped during the entire tutorial. i have no idea what everything means and how to apply them to the paper. well, maybe i jus have to come to tutorials prepared. do my homework and revision beforehand. its not that i don wanna do. its jus i cant seem to find the time.

by the time i reach home, its like almost 7pm. i have dinner. go online. watch the 9pm channel 8 drama. and then at ten, i'll feel sleepy. so i go pack my bag and set my alarm on my hp. and off i go to lala land. next morning, i'll woke up two hours before sch. usually nowadays ard 7am. get ready and leave for sch. well, that almost about how my life is on weekdays. on weekends i go out or i simply slack playing the sims. i cant find time to study on weekdays and on weekends i dont have the mood to do them. and my CAs are coming. i'm gonna die. well, i must reset myself to geek mode. i wanna study study study. i don wanna fail anything. i don wanna pass everything either. i wanna score.

anyways, i have class fototaking next monday. and i need to go find a bright solid green shirt. so maybe i'll shop for it one of these days. hmm. well. tmr after school, i'll try to go to the park to jog or smthing or jus maybe walk fast. butit'll be after sch and i'll be damn tired. so i'll see how. i hope mr sun wont let me down. this weekends will be pre-noon jogs weekends. this few days before the photoshoot, i'll have to starve myself again like i did during my previous year's class fototaking. well basically, i have to avoid carbohydrate. that means no rice, noodles, bread or dough related products. eat more vegetables. nothing fried at all. drink a lot of plain water. no chocolates. no ice cream. no more coffee. no more milk. jus simple plain sugarless tea or milo. and orange juice every lunch break. and the morning of the fototaking, fast. nothing to be eaten or drunk until after fototaking. jus some simple diet plans of mine in preparation for monday's fototaking.

note to self: practice smiling in front of mirror later.

anyways. today i went out. initially i wanted to go esplanade to chill. but decided on town later. donno why either. so i jus sat in the orchard library and read the magazines. for like 2hrs. went kinokuniya later and finally found the book i've been looking for for sooo long. confessions of an heiress by paris hilton. i read excerpts from it and thought that they were way cool. so i wanted to buy it. but it cost $39. so ex. i still wanna get fann wong's book in english edition and this one cost $19.90. anyways, i jus grumbled and walked away. haha. was approached by 2 survey people on the streets. i kindly complied. i know how it feels to ask people do do your survey and get rejected. so i jus played along. i gave them fake information. my name is alvin lee. but i'm indonesian so i donno chinese well. and i faked my contact number. it feels fun. haha. jus entertain them la. so i rushed off later.

reached home in time for the grand finale of the repeat telecast of american idol season 3. after watching the performance for the second time, its clear why fantasia won. although i still feel that diana' s the better talent, vocal wise. however, on the finals i think she jus overdid herself. she looked damn tired and overworked. her eyes were like almost falling asleep and look very tired. i know its hard work. and during the song, she pulled her voice to much that sometime abit shaky. but on other days, she did better. it jus wasnt her night. tmr afternoon is the results. i hope i'm home intime for it.

ooh. finally, to those people who think reading self help books means that we depend on people to destine our life, u're wrong. i believe that other people have gone through them and we jus learn from their life stories and apply it to ours whereever possible. it doesnt mean that we have no mind of our own. instead, we took the initiative to read bout ways to be happier and succesful in life. reading motivation books doesnt make me less a person, instead i strongly believe that it makes me a better one as now we know what to strive for and wad to avoid and how to live a more enriching life. everyone have their own opinions and they are entitled to it. applies to me and you.

tmr i need to wear formal. i hate it. well, till the next time, cheerios.

i learnt to be bold and live up to my beliefs.
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